HARI-HARI RANCAKKU!

si buta tak bertongkat

2011-12-27T15:58:00.001+08:00

walks in disarray.

i've been warned. and i've been measuring. but i still failed o reason.
the decision has been made. i'm sorry but the path towards owsumness requires huge sacrifice.

i should've known how selfish you people really are.
the point that taking me as a mark, that level that should be leveled is pretty much too much for me. i came as a friend, not rivals. seeing you guys leeching the best out of me with no actual profits from you useless bastards.. this is where a huge middle finger comes.

it's time for me to leave the pack and i realized you people are such a waste of my time.
don't really matters though, i still have my Familiy, my Liyana, My owsum Bros and also My Hooka Bros and many more backing me up from behind.

i'll do well. you guys watch out.
i define OWSUMNESS bitches.

One Step Ahead.

2011-12-27T15:24:00.001+08:00

UNDANG UNDANG KELUARGA - 3rd jan
UNDANG UNDANG TORT - 9jan
UNDANG UNDANG JENAYAH I - 11jan
BAHASA ARAB UNTUK UNDANG UNDANG - 13jan
PENGURUSAN MASA - 17jan
UNDANG UNDANG JENAYAH ISLAM -17jan
UNDANG UNDANG PENGGUNA - 19jan

*all my finals starts at 0830 except for ICL which is at 1500.

this timetable for me, is the best ever, i've got so many vantage points.
insya-allah i'll try to score high for this semester.
but first! settle my assignments and oral for Arab.

which brings, where the hell is my team mates? i hate delays. my revisions have been disrupted and delayed for some time now, i can't move to my revisions as long as i'm not free for my readings; my momentum is just not there with this oral burdening me. hope they read this. please.

Guardians

2011-12-27T02:13:00.002+08:00

my friends always asked me, how anne and i get along so well since most siblings would be in this heavy rivalry on each other. the fact that we share, hangout and keep each other's back has been a thing eversince pops passing.

this post is nothing but me recommending people to watch 'Grave for The Fireflies'. the story is beautiful that's all i could say, it asnwers your questions how i kept my sister so close to me (random heavy fights are must,still). and appreciating others
i remembered watching this movie on VHS @ tape during my standard 1 with a cousin of mine. until now, watching it eventhough in different format still roll my tears down.

the very last few words that i still kept on holding is to take care. its a responsibility that would never ends.
people preach on how family has always been their biggest supporter, but if you can't make your own siblings as your own priority just yet, you better revise your preach and make some changes.

go on, try and watch that movie. in the dark full blasted audio or surroundsound or what ever you have, immense yourself. and learn what i've learnt.

or atleast take a sneak peek preview on Youtube.
*search for the anime version not Live Action.

oh! and just a quick shout aloud, congratulations aney for finishing your SPM. =)

2011-12-18T04:16:00.003+08:00

jam pukul 4.00 pagi,nanti jam 7.00 nak pergi jogging.

menung tengok berdozen kertas sarat dengan hujah.
sekali sekala jeling ke tumblr dan 9gag. (tolonglah! aku berada disitu disaat 9gag baru ada 3 mukasurat dan tiada iklan ditepi)
nak bandingkan jenayah rogol dan rompak antara Hudud dan Undang2 Inggeris yang sedia ada dengar macam senang.

ayam Uncle Bob dengan Cadbury Hot chocolate.
sedangkan perut masih kenyang satay dan kepala berdesing memperakui kebenaran,

Undang2 Jenayah tanpa barisan bakal peguam, sangat lah tidak best.
Undang2 Keluarga buat rasa nak naik pelamin.

alangkah elok apa yang terlintas diluah terus tanpa perlu diminta2? lebih baik teruskan berjuang daripada dibiar begitu sahaja?
dah, semuanya sudah selesai.
tiada apa lagi nak dirisaukan, insya allah.

gembirakan aku semula.

week 14.

2011-12-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

assalamulaikum! long gone mikki now returns, it was one hell of a busy semester and not in my slightest favor to post anything in this blog.
well, since the day after tomorrow notes that it is the final week of the semester before the FinEx. i kinda feel sorta relief.

dues: 2 Assignments on Islamic Criminal Law, 2 Assignments on Family Law and 1 Presentation on Criminal Law.

a total of 5 submissions 'eleh essay je' of what people from other facs say.

insya allah. will finish em by this weekend!

ten days

2011-10-27T01:19:00.001+08:00

Deepavali. Last year i snatched her from her friends and turned our evening into an everlasting bond.

and up till now, i've been snatching her over and over again.

like a pirate =)
happy PRE-anniversary love.

2011-09-06T15:07:00.001+08:00

though. Anne's composition sucks (that's why she's in the editing department),

but the wall, the writings and me standing like an idiot described me and what i want to be,well.

2nd Round.

2011-09-03T04:15:00.000+08:00

3rd September.

just a few days left before rolling back into UKM, starting my Second Year session.

long holiday, missing and rusting.
saved by Skype/texts and calls.
also, honed with thick textbooks and reading stuffs.

too many peeps asking why dont i get myself roll into some law firms? my other peers are doing it. why dont i?
i guess the simple safe answer - i'm still not ready yet.

a handful seniors of mine had push (advise lah, takkan nak paksa. senior2 aku baik~) me to do so, and quite a number of law firms had been introducing and invited me to get a look on how legal life's all about.
but i push the opportunities given,

humbly said,i'm just not ready yet to do office jobs, drivings wearing formal collar. My heart is solely for my books and readings at the moment.

memanglah seronok dengar kawankawan sembang/call/ PM,

"bro, aku gerak court dengan bos tgk case"
"bro, bos belanja makan"
"bro, elaun aku sedap ah belasah untuk raya"

but my thinking was simple, i would be proud to be in those shoes. but i would be far more embarrassed if my Taukey Law firm asked me things i have not learnt.
i dont want them to give the "what FUU UKM taught to their students nowadays?" impression. or maybe,
to answer "result hang cmna?" kinda question.
i'm still young in my fac anways, kan? not much have been learnt in Year 1.

let me, fill up this brain of mine and regain back my marks.
then only i can have guts to show up on any lawfirms' doorsteps.
Insya-allah, kalau nak kira kerja. Tuhan itu ada. Dia tak lokek dengan rezeki-Nya.
yang penting, ilmu kena full dulu.

all in all, if there's anything i would ever hope for, is people to respect my decisions.

"takpa, cuti sem depan. Insya-allah"

54.

2011-09-02T03:48:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and Hi, Hello again =)

tadi post pasal Hari Raya and a wee bit pasal my Ramadhan. This time pasal Merdeka pulak.
ehehem..

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT ULANGTAHUN KEMERDEKAAN

KE-54!!

okay2. hari ke-dua kita menyambut bulan Syawal, Negara kita pula menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan. Alhamdulillah.

Malangnya, kehadiran kedua2 sambutan yang mulia dan penuh kesyukuran ini agak dicacatkan dengan statement dan sentimen2 benci. aku refer dengan isu seorang Pemimpin Parti yang melabel Komunis pada waktu awal kemerdekaan sebagai pejuang sebenar dan bukan anggota polis yang terkorban di Bukit Kepong.

Menyedihkan, ya.

Apa yang buat kita menjadi lebih 'cuak' ialah, kenyataan sebelum2 ini yang mengatakan adanya gerakan pihak2 tertentu yang nak up-kan balik fahaman komunis. reaksi pertama yang aku dapat daripada pakcik2 and veteran2 commies dulu? " Orang sekarang ni, makin tamak".

fikiran mudah mungkin melenting2 bila dengar apa yang dikatakan pakcik tua ini. tapi bila diperhalusi, kita gunakan akal kita balik. ada sebab kenapa pejuang2 terdahulu cukup marah. aku percaya, ada tempat kita boleh jadi seberfikiran bebas yang kita nak, seliberal yang kita mahu, sedemokrasi yang kita laungkan.

tapi2, kita harus ingat untuk sentiasa toleh kebelakang. dan rasa satu perasaan malu, benda yang kita buat sekarang ini tak setimpal dengan apa yang tok nenek kita pernah lalui suatu masa dahulu.

macammacam.

apa yang penting, sebagai rakyat malaysia, kita sepatutnya melahirkan rasa syukur kepada Allah swt, kita hidup dalam negara yang Merdeka, aman & murah dengan limpahan rezeki-Nya.

*note:
1. Portugis - Belanda- Inggeris- Jepun- Inggeris (again) - Komunis. kan?
2. Bukan waktu lawan Komunis, kita sebenarnya bergerak dengan bantuan negara2 Komanwel?
3. ada beza Chin Peng dan Nordin Mat Top.

“Kita tidak boleh mempertikai sumbangan kaum-kaum lain (Cina dan India) ketika menentang fahaman (komunis) yang tidak boleh diterima sama sekali. Kenyataan beliau bukan saja menimbulkan kemarahan orang Melayu, malah orang Cina dan India juga,”

-Tokoh sejarah, Prof. Emeritus Tan Sri Dr. Khoo Kay Kim . (Source: Utusan.com.my)

Sweet Victor.

2011-09-02T03:18:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah,

again, it's too late for me to wish, but better late than never..kan?

1.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Minta Ampun, Minta Maaf Zahir dan Batin sekiranya ada tersalah kata, terkasar bahasa, tersindir hati yang senang luka.
minta Halalkan Makan Minum and Shisha mana2 yang dah meresap dalam badan ni. Kalau ada saya terhutang saudara/i yang boleh claim. tell me ja. Insya-allah boleh settle mana yang mampu =)

2. Alright, just a simple note, Alhamdulillah, i have done my responsibility as a Muslim in the month of Ramadhan. Though needs lot more improvements in certain areas of my "Ibadah".

i have done my best to keep my solat, and i guess the part where i think not only me but most other muslim have in common is executing it early. i found out that the verse "Solah is better than Sleep" in Subuh Azn should be a great advise for us. not only during the Subuh, but other times of Solah too.

kantoi a lot especially on Zuhr, (fell asleep. dui) but i worked on it as soon as i woke up.

- Al Quran, is not a mere recital book, i'd learnt that the more we put our curiosity in it. the more we would be amazed on this book's secret essence. i just found it lovely after all these years. It has been a few Ramadhan i failed to make use the 30days period to khatam, and this year is no better. but i found that reciting while learning at the same time is more profitable rather than just reciting it to your thirst.
Slow-paced, but Quality first.

Alhamdulillah, in return; i managed to follow back a few long surahs recited by the imam during the Tarawikh. it's fun though, before this, we're just standing there "Amin-Ruku'-Sujud-Tahiyyat". this time we put ourselves one step forward to actually be a part of a Jamaah.

- Lastly, no matter how much people say they have regretted of not make full use of the month of Ramadhan doing as much good deeds as they can. i can only say one thing, (learnt from Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah; i'm sure it's from a Hadith but dont recall which or even the citation).

"Kita Beribadat, bukan untuk bulan Ramadhan. Tapi kerana Allah Ta'ala. Ramadhan itu akan berlalu.

tapi Allah itu kekal"

so, i'm pretty much satisfied with what i have achieved so far and i'm looking forward to continue what i learnt in the month of Ramadhan that had left us some four days ago. i have done as much workings to the extend of my body, i have no regrets=). Jumpa Ramadhan lagi tahun depan. Insya-Allah.

dia dah datang~

2011-08-04T02:01:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK =)

*sorry lambat

bottom-dive.

2011-07-26T13:30:00.002+08:00

just some few stuffs i looked up in wikipedia.

1. Psychological trauma is a type of damage to the psyche that occurs as a result of a traumatic event. When that trauma leads to posttraumatic stress disorder, damage may involve physical changes inside the brain and to brain chemistry, which changes the person's response to future stress

2. A traumatic event involves a single experience, or an enduring or repeating event or events, that completely overwhelm the individual's ability to cope or integrate the ideas and emotions involved with that experience.

3. Trauma can be caused by a wide variety of events, but there are a few common aspects. There is frequently a violation of the person's familiar ideas about the world and of their human rights, putting the person in a state of extreme confusion and insecurity. This is also seen when people or institutions, depended on for survival, violate or betray or disillusion the person in some unforeseen way.

4. After a traumatic experience, a person may re-experience the trauma mentally and physically, hence avoiding trauma reminders, also called triggers, as this can be uncomfortable and even painful. They may turn to psychoactive substances including alcohol to try to escape the feelings. Re-experiencing symptoms are a sign that the body and mind are actively struggling to cope with the traumatic experience

5. Triggers and cues act as reminders of the trauma, and can cause anxiety and other associated emotions. Often the person can be completely unaware of what these triggers are. In many cases this may lead a person suffering from traumatic disorders to engage in disruptive or self-destructive coping mechanisms, often without being fully aware of the nature or causes of their own actions. Panic attacks are an example of a psychosomatic response to such emotional triggers.

6. Trauma can be caused by man-made and natural disasters, including war, abuse, violence, earthquakes, mechanized accidents (car, train, or plane crashes, etc.) or medical emergencies.

7. However, different people will react differently to similar events. One person may experience an event as traumatic while another person would not suffer trauma as a result of the same event. In other words, not all people who experience a potentially traumatic event will actually become psychologically traumatized.

..thanks wikipedia.

not THAT FUBAR.

2011-07-21T11:56:00.002+08:00

i've got two cameras need repairs.

1. a 1981, Ricoh XR6 camera

2. Polaroid Onestep Rainbow.

need camera workmanship.

other than that here's my arsenal of cameras (other than the two mentioned above)

dslr : nikon d90 with speedlite. (still needs a flagship, Canon cepatlah keluarkan full frame baru!)

analogue: La Sardina, Diana F+ with 35mm back, Holga K200 Nm (fisheye-able), Lubitel 166+.

Instant: Polaroid One step rainbow (mentioned above), Polaroid 600 (the one with clamp-flash style) and Fuji Instax Wide 210.

35mm format: Ricoh Xr6 (mentioned above), nenek said we have an old Yashica but needs some digging in the attic. urgh.

medium format: hasselblad c500 smtg2

...malas nak kira.

thanks for reminding -..-

2011-07-21T02:54:00.004+08:00

it's a tradition for boys in my family to study/work hard (and save up money) no matter what fields we're in starting at the age of 20.

just set how many could you possibly get. set the duration. and draw a strategy and achieve it?

sounds simple? i dont know.

duration: till i'm 30-35

target: Rm100'000 - rm250'ooo, respectively =)

work! work! work!

rules? 1) savings 2) investment is allowed 3) must not be stingy 4) zakat (when capable) and alms are must.

Challenge Accepted.

major drawback

2011-07-20T12:08:00.003+08:00

i'm so good in fights. the one involving fists, knuckledusters and bats.

quite a talker, a foul-mouth.

but can never stand for too long in an argument,

with anyone.

girlfriend, sister, brothers and most derhaka of all..mom and nenek.

yeah, it feels good to raise your voice once in a while after holding your anger/ smtg unsatisfactory.

but chances are:

1) your situation gets worst

2) the other party dont actually listen to your rants

3) fever.

i mean like high fever. ultra high-damn lolapaloooza fever!

that's me. the major drawback.

alhamdulillah, few issues had been resolved. but the fact that i hate arguments and a bad fever is smtg that i need to work up upon.

i just want to resolve all the shits that has been happening. i just want to be heard. i just want you to listen...that something has been bothering me. and i'm loosing my grip.

but it's all settle now. alhamdulillah

this peace will last, god's will =)

11.7

2011-07-11T02:40:00.002+08:00

what if i'm not up to her expectations?

what if i wouldnt be able to present myself well?

my goodness. give confidence, ya Allah.

meeting her mom.

reminder.

2011-07-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

11hb- meetup with Lyea.

12hb- daftar PC program kat UKM

14hb- ada conference E-Lawyers

16hb- Liverpool.

okay done.

"eyes sharp!"

2011-07-09T05:54:00.001+08:00

maybe, i would go out today. nothing to be feared pun.

so why not i take Nikki with me and get some interesting photos?

...not fear that halts me. ever.

2011-07-09T03:59:00.008+08:00

assalamualaikum.

okay, i'll be suspending my lovey-dovey posts fr awhile.

today in less than 10 hours will be the deciding point, the climax to the 2011 'Malaysia's Bersih 2.0 rally'. i'd just copied the title of the rally since i don't actually know how can it be Malaysia's since not all men and women who actually support it. but anyhow, that's what people calls it.

i've no actual objective to write on this matter, but being pushed by eager people wanting to know. WHY of all things that i would actually be the master-rebel itself, backed off far from the crowds in this event?

the answer is simple; i don't know.

i don't know onto which path does this struggle of mine should follow.

i don't know what does the people actually mad about.

i don't know why are we doing this.

everything is just too...vague?

vague, in terms of ideas, the plans, the actual drive...it's no longer something explainable.

the usual phrases

"kami nak bersuara untuk mendapatkan sistem pilihan raya yang telus dan adil"

"tengok! macam mana nak gerakkan kerajaan? kebebasan rakyat untuk berhimpun pun tak boleh! apa pun takbley!"

...and endless mockings, and insults on the government.

Dear Fellow Malaysians, to govern a country is no easy task =)

maintaining one, keeping one aint no easy task, too =)

1) and so many people even claim from democracy while the majority has spoken up who'll keep on governing in our last election.

and so i call, if so all you armies in yellow wanted a fair election. why now?

why can't it be done few couple of days after the result of the election itself?

2) too many people ask me to reason, why am i too afraid to march together in yellow? i said i'm not afraid, i'm just exercising what i believe is right. i still keep my words of "matlamat tak halalkan cara". regardless of how the event made permissible.

this is not the way how a citizen should act, gather and march. speaking of how undemocratic the gov's is, what democracy is there in your own action?

3) and this leads to, "well, my action is based on the Federal Constitution itself". "Art. 10".
"i know" i replied. but that one Article you're trying to exercise is limiting other people's rights!

from what i understand when it comes to the concept of Constitutionalism, the constitution is not complete YET if we read it on it's own. true, Art 4 of the FC stressed out that the FC is the highest law of the land. but think of it this way, THE FC is the root to other laws, anything written in there are supposed to be there, but it took other laws to actually define the mechanisms of what can and can't do.

in this context i'm referring to Art 10 (b) of the FC and how it has been limited to the needs of permits under section 27(2) of the police act 1967.

-The courts had ruled that it made compulsory to obtain a permit before proceeding the event involving assemblies.

have a look at Datuk Yong Teck Lee v PP [1993] 1 MLJ 295. so how?

how can this event be fair my fellow malaysians? it has been ruled, but people go against it. expecting the people at large to come forth, show how patriotic they are by simply knock over a law is just plainly ignorance. imbecilic if i can add so.

law exists in many forms. and decided cases are pieces of them.

4) STOP! enough mocking our leader. why are these people keep on saying how corrupted they are? without some solid evidences. wouldnt it be a fitna? yes, surely, our leader has some flaws and controversies but what can you actually expect from him if he is to govern in a limited period?

oh! and this brings to more questions. "Pemerintah yang macam mana lagi kau nak? siapa yang kau nak tengok teraju Malaysia ni? Cara apa yang kau nak dia pakai bila memerintah..." and the biggest question..."mampukah?"

and again, i've been banged "kau budak law apa kau tahu pasal kerajaan?? baca buku sudah"

nice, but it has been stated that in the elections, the one with the most majority wins. and takes seatings in the parliaments, well, to make it clear, you should take note of this analogy of mine.

Bersih 2.0 takes place > citizens have this perception of our commissioner of election> The current government gets quite an impact on the negative images spread > Psychologically, people would move to the other sides believing anything fed onto them> if luck sides with the opposition, they'll win> a majority of them will sit in the Parliament.

now, remember the FC? here's where it gets interesting.

since amendments needs 'aye' as we jokingly express it. 2/3 majority of em > The provision can be ammend > remember Art. 3? Art. 152? Art. 153? > that's the turning point for them.

in a way, i think there's a reason why the government somehow acted with a black mind during the election. TO PRESERVE. they know what it'll cost us if the tradition of continuous governing is defeated.

and for surely, some rotten apples in the party itself has been a great pain for the ruling government to keep on saying "Look, we're still under control. chill. dont go to the other side."

what is bad in our current ruling government might gets worst if it changes hands, no?

it's like giving a new apprentice in the workshop to reassemble a f***ed up car engine. the new guy might have some new ideas to reassemble it. but it takes someone senior, experienced enough to screw on the nuts and bolts according to the learned steps. new ideas is nothing without experience. that i could tell.

i'm not expressing this as a "main2" thing.

LOOK PEOPLE! Throughout this 54 years, Our Federal Constitution has been ammended 600times! Dr. Shad Saleem Faruqi said so in an interview with The Sun. everything's possible if you look at it closely.

Bahagian ini aku nak cakap bahasa melayu. tak kira lah macam mana diversiti pun negara kita ini. apa yang dijuangkan orang-orang terdahulu seharusnya dijaga rapi. ini amanat. sebab adanya provisi-provisi ini lah kita orang melayu ini dapat sedikit kelebihan.

kau masuk asasi undang-undang, buat asasi Tesl, asasi, Sains, dan bidang-bidang lain di uitm. sebab apa? sebab adanya Per. 153 itu. Felda semua antara yang menjadi hasil daripada provisi itu melalui idea2 pemimpin2 kita dengan izin Allah.

jangan! jangan bila orang nak pinda kita setuju sahaja. pegang apa yang kita ada, kerana itu semua adalah amanat orang terdahulu, dan wasiat bagi yang kemudian datang mengganti kita.

Anarki/liberalisme dan sbagainya tak ke mana dalam konteks apa yang hendak aku sampaikan dekat sini. Ini adalah kita, cuba untuk teruskan hidup dengan sedikit kelebihan.

Islam sebagai agama rasmi, baru AGAMA RASMI, belum NEGARA ISLAM. (mereka2 yang taip kat blog Malaysia Negara Islam. erase. betulkan. malu lah ). tapi tengok berapa ramai yang menentang? sampai parti hijau mataku tukar madah perjuangan. kepincangan yang berlaku dalam pihak yang satu lagi itu dah cukup untuk kita tanya diri sendiri

" Kedai Melayu habis ranap kat pulau sana"

"Tengok negeri islamik tapi tak naiknaik?"

"porno? uhm"

dan bila aku cakap pasal pindaan Perlembagaan Persekutuan, tak terhad kepada tiga provisi itu sahaja. tapi macam-macam lagi. Beli satu salinan PP. cuba lihat apa yang ia ada.

bunyi macam melalut. tapi aku minta sangat-sangat.

fikir.

silap2 Perkara 10 yang mahsyur skejap itu pun habis kena lauk.

rasanya sampai sini sahaja dahulu, apa apa pun aku ucapkan selamat maju jaya kepada semua yang pergi kejap lagi nanti ni.

aku hormat perjuangan semuanya. Baik yang pergi ke stadium mahupun memilih untuk tinggal dirumah, cuma idea dan pemikiran aku ni yang membuatkan aku sedikit tawar untuk ikut.

cuma satu, jangan berlebih-lebihan, sabar itu kan separuh dpd iman?

assalamualaikum.

sekejap janji jadi.

2011-07-06T05:26:00.002+08:00

tomorrow Lyea's coming back!

turun 7 hb and balik on the 12th.

9th pulak ada BERSIH.

and on the 8th dah start lockdown, while 10th recovering day.

so bila nak jumpa ni =(

omaigudnes.

no matter. the important thing here is to make sure we somehow meet!

*janganlah situation jadi awkward semacam.

baru dekat 3bulan tak jumpa. dui!

yesterday marked the 8th month O.O

omaii..time sure flies =)

july list.

2011-07-06T05:16:00.002+08:00

1. a new pair of running shoes! climacool ride (orange)- RM369.00

2. La Sardina analogue camera! the blue one with flash! - rm 399.00

3. Lawbooks collection! Undang2 Jenayah/ undang2 Keluarga (sivil dan Islam)/ Cyber Law - RM174.00

4. new threads! topman (top) and cotton on (pants)- rm500.00

5. new suit! again. topman - not sure

6. a new haircut! eye-level (front), long burns (sides), long straight-mullet (rear) - free

7. LIVERPOOL! 16th july - 3seats fr rm150.00

8. Restraint gig at publika @ solaris dutamas!

9. Puasa Syaaban!

matilah! duit duit duit -..-'

fever go away =(

2011-06-27T15:46:00.003+08:00

Liyana rosli, jangan la demam-demam :(

kata next week nak turun sini..

rest banyakbanyak,

minum air banyakbanyak,

tidur banyakbanyak,

makan ubat semua tau. please :(

i miss you.

semua nak june!

2011-06-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

let's see... anne, anep, puta, rhoma, apis adik ara uh.

semua nak june! last2 semua tiup kek.

aku dok tepi tangkap gambar ja kerja

hahaha

June people = Owsum peeps?

May people = Ultra sexy

L**

2011-06-26T20:49:00.003+08:00

lately ni, ramai kawan-kawan minta opinion this and that.

lagi2 current situation kat Malaysia.

but for some reason, aku tak dapat nak bagi jawapan. bukan tak dapat sangatlah,

cuma TAK NAK.

entahlah, maybe lepas kena jerkah "law student bajet bagus" aku hilang mood habis2an.

rasa macam jelik sangat. dah tu kena tembak-gangbang bagai.

semangat ni hilang. serious semangat tu hilang.

one thing i could say, there are friends and people out there love listening to my preach up to hours and i love it.

sebab aku percaya apa2 yang aku belajar, aku kena share. aku WAJIB share.

too many "kenapa?" and "habis nak buat macam mana?"

and i would calmly explain one by one.

what is right, and how come it went wrong.

what limits the other's freedom and so on.

but one thing for sure i would never say, "kau lulusan undang2 ka??"

it's rude, it's wrong..

i picked a comment from a senior of mine, one of its commentors said

"Akta polis nak tafsir Perlembagaan? K*** lulusan undang2 ka?"

maybe orang tu lebih tahu? or maybe dia tak tahu and so we have to explain.

jangan rendah2kan orang lain. tak baik.

dah dah dah, nak p lepak =)

lepas ni takda kot post pasal undang-undang.

kena tembak 'bajet bagus' nanti

poik

Jackass'd

2011-06-21T03:38:00.003+08:00

i remember when i first got my Astro set, i used to watch MTV's 'Viva La Bam'.

and soon after that i discovered the greatest show, Jackass.

and other than Bam Margera and Johnny Knoxville tearing their asses up was Ryan Dunn who for me, was the coolest among the other crew.

he passed away in a car accident which destroyed his car, a Porsche 911 GT3 i believe.

and it was in flames..

the star was badly charred and the only way to recognized him was his tattoo's.

today, the world lost one of the greatest daredevil there ever was.

R.i.P Ryan,

thanks for the awesome job

standing in the middle of the pit.

2011-06-21T03:05:00.002+08:00

...i asked myself,

"asal budak2 ni asik buat one step/two step (wtv we call it)? tempat kecik makan ruang ah..

clench your fists and swing your arms with it?"

and soon after that, mikki sambung bergasak dalam mosh pit. climbin' and throwin' himself from the stage onto the crowds. again and again -_________-'

IMPOSSIBLE-INSTAX Project : Day #1

2011-06-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

hey. just finished experimenting with Anne's Polaroid, a sweet ONE STEP Rainbow.

using a fresh package of PX 70 Color Shade PUSH films.

well, uhm. the experimenting was fun, we actually had to draw lots and lots of blueprints for the best shielding.

and construct a few 'shields' made out of black manila cards to cover the films as soon as it ejects the camera.

*if not the film will show extremely high tendency of orange hues! wtf!

out of 8 films from the film packs, only one (1) actually actually developed well, the picture of my car aka si Lehmahn.

while the other pictures came out Pink and Orange. sigh =(

other than that, i found out the One Step Rainbow's roller is somewhat faulty.

so, i might bring the camera to its shop in Petaling Jaya next week and ask them for any solutions or perhaps a few test shots with them.

*****

other than that, My Instax is doing just fine, ready for further shootings. i like the dark retro/ vintage look of the pictures developed.

cant wait for Lyea's comeback and have fun with this camera <3

takpe2. ni baru hari pertama. we have a lot more experimenting to do.

The Mikane photographers wont give up on the Rebirth of Polaroid.

IMPOSSIBLE. is. NOTHING.

the night went well.

2011-06-18T05:29:00.004+08:00

back during my uitm days, the boys from class usually would head off to section 7 shah alam during the nights with the books and all.

it's fun tho, seriously.

siang tak faham apa lecturer ajar, petang kat bilik mengomel2 itu ini. malam pekena canai and shisha kat section 7 and make clear semua problems kat class pagi tadi. and slalunya, wajib ada sabre, nazrin, syafiq azli and lini... sometimes, syafiq musa and rhastdan would tag along.

the best thing is..by 11pm, kerja semua mesti beres. and masing2 lari macam apa panjat pagar section 7 uitm. pernah kantoi, but itu yang last lah. we became highly trained-ninjas lepas tu. hahaha

*********

i got back home from Kamal's after gathering with my two bros uh, si sabre and nazrin. anne was there too. two balangs and almost four hours of discussing how fun and pathetic at the same time life was. we spent the night watching the usual Maharaja Lawak, pui!

penangan dia. we laughed like hell, sumpah sia. hahaha

pointers-dropping results,

Sabre's final exam next week and his clearance,

demonstrasi BERSIH,

Anne's ex yang sumpah muka sengih mintak kaki.

all in all, it's quite a sight, seeing your friends and other people around you in a tight space could actually treat each other well. walaupun, teguran se-simple, "Bang, Lighter ada?" and rplied with "Ada, weh rokok se bat".

what's more fun than those old friends who you didnt met for a long time, or even people you met at a glance would recognize you and enjoy the show together...

it's a fun night.

leaving. salam and goodbyes, i drove back fast and skyped with my lovely, girl.

almost two months. and her smile actually had do me a great favor =)

i bet Jozan will win!

jiao =)

Kebebasan asasi.

2011-06-18T03:04:00.002+08:00

so many people talk about kebebasan asasi this and that.

but so, little few who actually seen the actual copy of our Federal Constitution.

and more shitty it becomes is when, people who actually have their own stand but the same number of people failed to realize what are they actually fighting for? for whom?

sebab tahu sebut a few Article's dah pandai tembak this and that,

asthough kebebasan asasi is something uncontrollable, easy to access and to sharpen to bring into a fight.

without knowing how we who actually dedicate our lives studying them prepare to defend, uphold and make virtue out of the laws. so that what ever it dictates would actually be received by the public of its truest reason of existence....and i'm preparing for it. i'm still learning, but i'll give anything i have to make em clear. to make you guys clear.

more or less, even more people started to question this and that, under the name of kebebasan asasi,

without knowing the history of those before us, genius enough to design this lifestyle we have to embrace throughout our lifetime in this country.

i dont blame them, i pity em fool! (Mr. T-styled) for the failure to understand the 'whys'

history told us,

"we have set out this line. clear enough and would last till the very last person who keeps his faith in it. we have set out what they want, for their interest, we limit what was our interest, and it has been balanced since then...until the day one hunger for more than what he agreed upon.. then, action is must"

diberi isi yang empuk, nak peha.

manis kata, hilang pertimbangan mengikut rasa.

poor Malaysians. Epic Fail..

17 june 2011

2011-06-17T07:40:00.004+08:00

Friday. fasting on "white day" aka 13,14,15th of rejab.

well, better remind myself some few things to do so that today wont go to waste.

send ma's car to the workshop for body job. she got into a nasty accident yesterday
accompany her to Nagoya, to get some fabrics for her 'Kelas Menjahit'.
go for Friday prayers.
get a haircut, and maybe insert some tones to it. Oli!
sunway pyramid maybe..
berbuka puasa at home.
go to Kamal's section 7, shah alam and meetup with Sabre Jabar.
rush back home fr skype date with her <3

phew! hope i wont wear out by the end of the day =)

dreams.

2011-06-17T04:24:00.004+08:00

i have lots of dreams, and i know achieving them wont be an easy thing.

but hey, nothing else could actually push you but those things lingering in your mind..awaiting you.

well, i have list out few of those things.

take note, donnie. in 15 years. at least half of them will become true Insya Allah =)

a dream job with excellent pays,

lotus elise/exige or even nissan sports cars or maybe sylphy or maybe lancer? ,

a house in Putrajaya or maybe shah alam/subang/damansara?,

up to date gadgets, iphones, macbooks or even top high-end full frame DSLR cameras?

..and of course, (for being influenced by Seth Tan) marrying that special sarawakian girl?

you know it'll be rough. and its not easy..

but looking at your situation now. where money is never will be enough

that drives me more and more to achieve anything..everything.

sometimes, i felt sick for not getting what i ever wanted.

it's this kind of thinking that would eventually layout the blueprints to success.

damn all those rich kids who gets everything easily by a snap of a finger.

oh my god. i felt like working my ass out now.

insya-allah. i know god will help me out=)

just you wait, life...just you wait.

not clean enough.

2011-06-14T21:41:00.003+08:00

maybe i'm still young for my age.

i'm 20. and clearly, i understand what's actually actually happening in our country.

a friend of mine contacted me, asking whether i could find his mother a place to start a business in Klang.

well, i said "tempat tu banyak".

since his mother is selling 'kain' and 'Telekung' in Tunku Abdul Rahman area.

i said it would be better if they could make a site in Pasar Jawa Klang.

and i asked him, "awat, hg nak pindah?"

he said, "x bley ah bro, nak niaga pun payah. ni celaka apa ni nak demonstrasi. silap2 mati gak aku nanti"

see, malaysian?

tudia kebebasan berhimpun.

tudia kebebasan bersuara.

i remembered what my lecturer always remind us, the line that tells us no matter what, to one point if it can injure others we might as well pull a call, enough is enough.

"matlamat tak halalkan cara"

yes, i believe in this line. and i thanked my asasi lecturer fr keeping on reminding us again and again and again. no matter what power you possessed, or how many people you can rally,

we should always remember that whatever cause that we're fighting for..if it cost more damage than contributing success.. no matter how many turned up.

there aint any absolute victory gained.

so think, malaysians.

THINK.

UKM: Cabaran yang Tiada.

2011-06-14T04:23:00.003+08:00

well, ukm ni payah sikit aku nak hidup.

sebab rata2 budak2 dia jenis orang yang ikut telunjuk.

mereka buat sebab apa yang senior2 dulu buat.

or sebab terpengaruh dengan janji palsu.

or even sebab terlalu obses dengan ideologi mirage semata.

susah lah aku nak jumpa dengan orang yang betul2 ada fahaman kritikal yang berpegang teguh dengan apa yang dia percaya. yang, kalau aku gegar pakai ayat bangkangan yang paling power..sikit pun dia tak berganjak.

yeah, yang betul2 bagi aku cabaran bersem2 lamanya untuk ubah fikiran dia.

semuanya ikut emosi.serious.

dalam bercerita pasal perkara akademik.emosi tolak tepi bhai.

serious, kawan or lawan tu semua dah jadi satu golongan.

kau tahu kau betul, and kau kena lawan sampai dia sedar.

nope. aku TAK BERCERITA PASAL BUDAK2 DEBAT.

bagi aku, mereka2 ni cuma burung kakak tua.

budak debat nak menang.

budak debat menang sebab ayat diorang power.

budak debat power sebab ayat diorang power.

tapi power macam mana pun tak cukup nak buat aku angguk.

sebab aku nak isi. isi yang kau betul2 faham.

yang dalam 360 darjah aku corner balik kau macam mana pun still kena buat aku berusaha untuk berfikir.

...dan bukan 15minit yang diberikan untuk kau search wikipedia, siap citing bagai sebelum masuk debat. hujah berapi2. please lah.

dont get me start pasal GM, sumpah klakar.

jiao =)

UKM:senyuman yang hilang.

2011-06-14T02:46:00.004+08:00

i'd noticed...ever since i stepped into UKM's door

i'd kinda lost my smile.

my post appeared gloomy as though it's like a living hell in there well, YES IT IS!

i'm kinda lonely in there. a few friendly faces that come and go.

some few close beings that ripped my buds of my packet of 20's that made me stop.

mana ada lagi dah budak2 duduk sekolej malam lepak mapley-shisha.

mana ada lagi dah malam futsal sama2

mana ada lagi dah lepak2 and borak benda yang boleh diborakkan bersama

...tu semua cuma ada kat Kenanga, Uitm Shah Alam.

i've started weak. and it's not improving towards any better.

*i thank my girlfriend aka liyana rosli, adik jantan aka lini ismadi, few classmates, few zaba inhabitants and cool seniors.

kalau korang jumpa aku tanya kenapa aku post benda ni serious aku spill semuanya.

..kalau aku rajin ah.

and the nominees are..

2011-06-14T02:23:00.004+08:00

no, im not talking about the award.

but take it this way.

imagine giving prestigious award as giving some kind of a huge attention / appreciation.

well, foremost, its given to someone contributed so much to you. who made an effort and deserves one.

but awarding someone who is not. and basically because.

"dia kakak. i jumpa dia dulu before you"

well it shows,

that's just wrong an unfair.

maybe there's a heart who loves you.

that you had probably overlooked.

wanting a status update about him.

let him know you appreciate him.

seriously? 'kawan' ? wth? that had just broke his heart tonight....

seriously, people wont give Nobel awards to people who bombarded two cities killing millions with their inventions..

so choose wisely, or millions of hearts will suffer.

AWAY

2011-06-07T04:43:00.001+08:00

counting days

2011-06-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

..and blessings along the way.

i found the fact that, being too far away from each other aint easy. the last couple of days had been the most sour part in us.

she forgot,

i get mad,

she was anxious,

i over-reacted,

and in turn..The Mily's can be far damaged than speculated.

and it's all because of me.

i'm sorry.

i love you

eventho pirate has one eye...he sees =)

2011-05-26T01:54:00.002+08:00

males. there are lots of them walking on this earth
each bearing their own personality.

females. are god's gift...the best after life itself.

eyes. it took a pair of special ones to actually see a beauty and a charm

...i hate it when other boys see a girl just by the way she looks.
and not what she have..

..intelligent, polite, dignity, respect, religion, race. and all that they deserve.

muka bukan segalanya.

dan sebab tu kalau ada siapa2 usik be it my mom, girlfriend, sister..or even my grandmother or any of my female family membes/friends.
i'll go medieval out on the boys asses.

favorite tool: cota.

a norm broken.

2011-05-25T00:18:00.000+08:00

tak boleh mintak banyak-banyak dah sekarang. kongkong katanya :)

jual ikan.

2011-05-23T22:51:00.002+08:00

kawan-kawan ajak lepak tapi tak pergi.
kawan-kawan ajak lepak pantai tapi tak pergi.
movie? THOR dah nak basi.

syabas, berikan tepukan gemuruh!

it seems that when we think of others, well, others do not.
well, go out raise a middle finger and give a loud

"FFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK"

i'm selfish now.

soft side.

2011-05-16T02:31:00.002+08:00

day 16.

i guess, having a relationship, is something fun.
you've got to explore your partner (be it academically or in a kinky way:P )
and obviously yourselves.

11days ago was the 6th month Lyea and I had been together.
funny thing is, my first reaction after calculating the days, months bagai was

"so fast ah?"

hahaha
anyway, learnt a lot young mikki has by Lyea.

i soon to realize, that:

1) i'm sensitive
2) i'm a jealous maniac
3) i have low self-esteem
4) i no i'm no good in courting
5) i made her suffer

6) i miss her
7) i need her
8) i have dreams with her
9) i'm trying my best to keep us
10) i definitely love her

it has come to my intentions too,
i never felt this way before.
the eagerness to achieve something with her
i keep my hopes high
really high!
like..

THIS HIGH
*pointing to the sky

a few arguments happened for the last few days.
he wanted this, but she gave that..
she waited for him, but he was out..
he was not good enough, and she was denying..
she was wearing her long face, he did not know what to do
he was asking, but she said it's unimportant..
she was defending her friends and pasts, he felt sad for being shouted upon.

at the end of the day. both are missing each other.

i miss you, i love you.

hello? is there anyone like me?

2011-05-16T02:22:00.002+08:00

retracing days.

have you people ever watched Hellboy 2? it's called super sapien in Malaysia
(yeah, in Malaysia something satanic is not a good thing to be shown to public)

damn you, orang atasan
we're not that stupid.

anyway,
i learnt a lot in that movie. of how to survive in this world being the only species.
yeap, yourself.
i mean everyone is their own species, special, rare, valuable, priceless...endangered.

few nights ago, i argued with Lyea regarding stuffs.
personal stuffs,
and at the end of the call, before i decided to hung up.
she said somehing about me being a really different person.

soon, after hanging up.
i felt a slight hurt, and it's an unbearable one.

i asked myself.
how different i am that i have to change to be normal?

nah, forget it.

i can't never change.
the theory of evolution does not favor me in any circumstances.

amalgamation

2011-05-16T02:12:00.002+08:00

lost days.

i've been wandering in my own world lately. thinking what would happen to me next.
and just sitting for things to happen.

i'm 20 now.
a lot of things just keep on lingering in my mind. and i dont actually like it.
and coming to think of it. i may get myself loco if i keep doing this.

being a kid, i always wonder how life would look like as an adult, and so, i love my days slowly up to this stage. but as i progress, the environment surrounding me is just static.

it's like growing up, while everything else dont.

i'm a young man, who's different than the others.
well, that's one way to convince myself that i am special,
i ran from typicality, being odd is like...having a box of pencil colours.
and in that box are 7 color pencils making up a rainbow when arranged side by side.
and i'm the 8th...the white.

i'm different in so many ways.

and it takes time to realize.
that when you spinthe seven colours of rainbow.
you'll get white as a result.

testing firefox

2011-05-12T04:35:00.000+08:00

test test test test

Day 5 and Day 6- transition to adulthood.

2011-05-08T04:21:00.001+08:00

nah, later i'll type it.

Day 4- cavalry

2011-05-08T04:20:00.000+08:00

okay. this fever is sickening as shit. i'm going to the doctor now -..-

the big idea of another candle.

2011-05-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

happy birthday mikki.

Day 3- I'm REALLY NOT OKAY (HEY YEAH~)

2011-05-04T03:07:00.003+08:00

Day 3- does not came well as expected, my condition gets worsen every single hours. and i kept holding on and pretend it was nothing. i'm totally disobeying my doc's advise to get treatment ASAP whenever i get sick.

i did pretty much nothing today but sending ma to her mengaji class and take an evening nap. tried calling Lyea but she was busy i think. and later in the evening i picked ma up from the surau and went for grocery shopping. Aeon Bt Tinggi. ---i always hate this place for its DULLNESS.

Cotton On will be opening here soon. and i better get myself all fitted up for a part time oppurtunity. let's see what this old Topman bones can do =)

enjoyed the night alone with a couple of toasted bread. answered my girl's call, she sounded sleepy and most of the time i can't hear what she was saying. things got a little bit shaky and it has only been the 3rd day :/

"no, love. i'm not okay.

i wanted to know what you're doing the whole day, are you okay?

do you miss me today?"

that's all. i wanted to say/ask.

but her yawns said i should ask em later when she's not sleepy.

Seeds of Unhappiness.

Day 2- fever pitched in

2011-05-03T02:29:00.002+08:00

day 2 (2nd may 2011)- while Lyea in Sibu had a great morning shopping for a washing machine. while i, stucked in my house for catching a heavy fever.

i'm not in a comfortable situation and it looks like the whole family members had forgotten how grumpy i would be when i'm having a fever. boo.

woke up at almost 1100 after sleeping fr 16hrs...THAT'S RIGHT! SIXTEEN MUTHAFUCKIN HOURS!

but atleast the sore throat i had later yesterday had been relieved and now my temperature had risen up instead :/

Lyea called just now, and it's the best remedy i can ever sought for.

heard that her nephew is on the baby walker now. that junior pirate ;)

gosh. i'm missing her =(

tissue papers, kinder bueno, PSP, Bambee and a mug of nescafe for the night....

i'll survive. i must.

sorry dear,

i didnt go out the whole day,

tak dapat nak beli top up to call you .

sorry =(

Day 1 - terbang dengan Belon

2011-05-03T02:05:00.004+08:00

Day 1: Lyea spent the night at my house the night before right after we checked out of KPZ. had a great lunch in Wong Solo, enjoying and admiring the oh-so Ayam Penyet. well, i better take her to Singapore to enjoy the real Ayam Penyet. seriously, betul-betul penyet ah!

well, we went to LCCT around 0500am and arrived somewhere around 0610. and to our grieves, the departure gate had closed and there goes Lyea's flight....i'm sorry sayang :(

Rm349.00 and hours after that, My girl bought another ticket on the same day for that price. not so 'tambang murah' if you ask me. FU airasia.

we spent the entire morning and the early noon in LCCT's McDonalds. we even slept there while waiting for Lyea's 1555 flight.

surely, goodbye was never easy for me, i...i still need more time to spend with her.

a simple hug, a kiss on the forehead and a really meaningful 'salam'...well, atleast would give enough strength to see tomorrow.

jaga diri elok-elok,

have fun with parents,

jangan nakal-nakal,

do remember me...please :(

text, call, online no matter how just holla me once a day (atleast).

...and please dont change :(

i love you sayang =(

i'm missing you right after you walk away from me.

'i forbid you ' is legit.

aku tunggu sini diam-diam.

2011-05-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

well, second sem ended up with tears rolling down the steering wheel some 3 clicks from LCCT, and sweaty armpits for pushing Lehmahn for 30mins due to running out of gas.

nothing to say, but i;m pretty mush crushed and lost.

the two dont blend that well for me say...i've got a high fever joining them.

sheesh. that's it.

starting today and 118days to come.

HHR is my Live Journal. F-OUT!

it's like climbing a slippery cliff.

2011-04-10T00:29:00.004+08:00

you know what? remember about the past couple of post where i wanted to be an awesome pirate, the best and all? save it.

cause i'm not. it was a merely a propaganda!

i've tried, and tried and tried and when i almost reach the point of being your, 'THE BEST'.

i sink back to deepest shit hole. starting whole over again.

i'm depressed. shut up.

*tepuk lah tangan kimak! korang memang suka tengok aku macam ni kan??

like lah lagi. like!

vigilante!

2011-04-07T19:26:00.002+08:00

today was awesome!

a few good men and i helped a small group of cops nab a snatcher in hentian kajang.

i felt good!

but when i called lyea and told her that i almost got slashed and stabbed.

she became mad at me.

sorry sayang. seriously i didnt knew that he was carrying a knife.

1000times listening to Pink's song wont do the cut.

it needs action than mere spoken words

2011-04-07T18:52:00.002+08:00

just some random scratches.

it's beyond any doubts,that,

why do i have to say sorry. and while i really really mean it.

it's not even my fault and people devalue it?

when the actually fault is not initially mine.

but i have to reason as though it's mine?

why when i tried my best to understand people.

people wont spend a blink to do the same to me?

why do people get all the honey

while i got what's there that remains?

and for someone so special,

i raised my sensitivity to one level i never shown to other people before.

but in return, insensitivity and non-perfection shielded that special one.

last few nights, ugly arguments.

i was unsatisfied, she argued and it was too good.

i'm short for words. i wanted to explain. i wanted to ask

"why am i not being treated any better like you have done before?"

"why am i not been praised like your pasts "

"why? am i of no proud to you?"

well, clearly i'm nothing to be bragged off.

and so i deserve any treatments you gave me.

and then comes,

"sayang, the past is past..okay?"

i've been listening that quite lot.

but i wanted to be told that i'm the best there ever had been.

i'm the definition of awesome.

that freezes my tongue instantly.

my questions were hold at bay.

...and after endless diversion. no clear answer.

one threat by bob marley.

i given up with my questions.

now, i just continue things as usual.

ignore that inbox threat. loosen up things

as we're not just learning each other.

we're learning what's there in ourselves.

i'm learning my best in me to give it to you.

nah, people wont bother reading this.

all to occupied to realize.

but after today, i thought what if the next time

i wont be that lucky?

maybe the angel of death comes with an invitation from god?

the shiny blade actually stroke me twice in the heart?

or thrice to end sufferings quick.

would only then...situation turns the otherwise?

if it does, then let it be

cause at least i win

i shaped ignorance:)

i hate being ignored.

i need attention.

towards the end of 1st year

2011-04-01T00:46:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

okay. dah lama tak jengah blog neh. sorry ah been busy with my reality.

1. FINAL EXAM

well, first and for most.

my final examintaion will be starting next week.

yeah, the ever so friendly. Malaysian Legal System II

it's on the 5th of april. 0900 Panggung seni. Seat 42 (or was it 41??)

no matter.

i'm doing well with my revisions. alhamdulillah

2. Anak tiri.

ah nothing lah. it's just that i had reopen my Tumblr.

no! closed the old one and started a new one.

that means i'm re-NOOBing myself. hahaha

3. Hunger.

i'm always getting a bit hunry lately.

well, basically i dont eat much these days.

only when i go out with Lyea.

other than that, i kept myself occupied with my law-books.

(so much for my LIFE)

okay. this is just a warm up!

keep close!

jiao :)

oh! BEFORE I FORGET!

shits occured for one shithead(me).

1. i've got these fukin small injuries in my mouth after i accidently bit the hell out of my inner walls of my mouth...since you fuckers dont know what i'm trying to say.

it sounds like this. ulcer.

and that actually make me realize why mother always scold me not to talk with my mouth full.

2. i'm hating the fact that things go absolutely wrong. ALL THE TIME!

i mean. WHAT THE HELL?

i've just been called by my lecturer and discussed about my Problem-Based Learning, PBL.

and to my surprised i was been highlighted as being "not able to give full commitment"

what. the. fuck. teammates?

racist much. do ya?

2.1) and it gets tangled even more when my ko-ke, which is Seni Foto UKM.

also said the same thing. commitment.

what the fucking. fuck?

have i make it loud enough? i hate being compared to.. i mean, i;m a law student. my daily routine is all related to lawbooks and cases. not 24hours wielding my camera like the you-know-who in the koke team?

so stop it. i've got a lot of PBL's, revisings and stuffs. tch.

other than that? i;m just a messed up kid stranded in UKM

fuck.

rasa macam babi

2011-03-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

tiba tiba aku rasa sangat gemuk.

and aku tak suka rasa macam ni.

it comes to a point,

daripada nak enjoy life,

datang perasaan berdosa besar

everytime nak makan

i felt a bit embarrassed.

fuck this shit.

fuck this feeling!

stop makan lah camni.

moot.

2011-03-09T11:59:00.001+08:00

tak tahu nak kata apa.

10 yang terlintas

2011-03-05T13:10:00.004+08:00

*dimulakan dengan bismillah dan mapley pagi

1. isi minyak penuhpenuh and drive to the unknown

2. tangkap gambar guna Nikki (the nikon d90)

3. tangkap gambar guna Luby (the Lubitel 166+)

4. tangkap gambar guna staxxy (the fuji instax)

5. climb the highest hill and watch the sun rise

6. go to an old town-colonial-historical and do 2,3,4 with the loved ones

7. hot lunch, ice creams and evening coffee

8. walk along the beach and watch sunsets

9. walk at night in the city

10. sleep in Lehmahn the dancing cloud aka my saga FL (with possible cuddles) and leave early the next morning

..settlekan PBL and exams. baru boleh main puaspuas :)

The Fourth Rule.

2011-03-04T01:22:00.004+08:00

when we talk about relationships, the fourth rule after LOVE and TRUST and also TOLERATE, is SHARING. Sharing to my ideal way of thinking is where one party has a material advantage over the other and by giving certain amount that he/she possess to that party at disadvantage so that both can be equal or almost equal.

i do believe on sacred literal rules in relationships. and personally, i uphold the term 'whats mine is yours, too'. meaning that, being together is no longer..mine! mine! MINE!

it's ours now :)

and i feel sad to my friends who happend to met girls that might be right to their eyes but wrong from others point of views. It's where the term i believe in turns somehow 'back-fired' and thus conjured an aggrieved party in the relationship. the terms has been misshapen badly that the signs of sincerity is nowhere..but just hopes.

where A & B are two having conversations.

supposing it would be something academic-straight to the point-relationship tightener.

A: what's mine is yours too.

B: (thinking critically on A's statement)

what's yours is mine,

and what's mine is still mine.

double-possession!

observation: A is willing to share while B will die in the flames of the deepest hell

got the idea now?

to cut short. sharing is where one party to a relationship submits his/her will to do something to another party whose having difficulties where he/she needs his/her pair to offer necessary help.

i'd once said. love is never equal. One should always give more to the another but NEVER expect the same to be served onto him/her.

to end my words, never expect more, because any form of sharing back is up to them decide.

and surely never ask. you can give but never ask as it's a form of forcing.

just let them do what's best for you :)

i submit,

mikki kamarulzaman

my pair has been doing her part gracefully,

to one extend none would ever done the same,

simply, i found the right 'she' for 'me'

alhamdulillah :)

challenge accepted.

2011-03-01T18:32:00.002+08:00

...with a few amendments

*cewahh! amendments!

ehem anyways,

malam malam tanpa nasi dengan syarat...

selasa, jumaat, sabtu dan ahad dikecualikan.

perghh. fair kot?

nasi goreng padprik ayam/ daging merah

burger ayam double special cheese

kwey tiao goreng telur mata

triple cheese naan

paling cikai pun...maggi ayam mamee/ maggi shitake.

droooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

aku mintak hujung minggu nih hujan..LEBAT SIAP PETIR BAGAI

2011-03-01T02:51:00.003+08:00

yeah, aku sakit hati sia.

serious shit.

i can wait,

i would listen

and definitely will lend my pair of helping hands.

so long you can just hear and see my intentions of doing so is for you.

and it's all because i care.

and hating all these nonsense.

that is taking most of our time together,

leaving me downstairs dinner alone aint fun

especially the group of girls sitting next to me

suddenly tease "sorang? nak teman ke?" at me.

yeah, and i hate it when i talk a lot

for the reason of 'i care'

and you just give me long silence and 'em'

and suddenly raise your voice...

...and i was like, okay.. you're a big girl

you can handle things yourself.

why would you need me for anyway, kan?

apa lagi miks?

*lompat atas katil. tido*

the best remedy for the always been mis-appreciated party :)

Greetings Miserable March.

2011-03-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

it's the first day of the month,

and i can just feel how intense the atmosphere really is.

and it looks like it would last quite for long.

Me:

i. TiTas presentation fr tomorrow. doomed

ii. Documentation fr PBL Contracts. covered

ii.(b) KAPREZA - no interesting. ditched

iii. Cases fr PBL Consti, Moot. working and progressing

iii. (b) PBL fr Islamic Legal System. lost

iii. (c) PBL second round for MLS. blur

iv. Faculty of Law's Dinner. so-so

v. Kolej Pendeta Za'ba's Dinner. i mean, seriously?

and that one thing that booked me up for the whole month...

The April's Final Examination fr Sem 2

i'd just finished reading quite a number or cases,

and i'm totally fucked up right now.

seems it's hard to actually stack everything up into your head.

yeap, i swear my head spins as i lie down just now

..now fr the second part

i'm on a challenge here.

it's called 'tiga puluh satu hari (31) hari tanpa nasi petang'

it means no rice fr dinners.

i've stop smoking and i succeeded.

so why not step up a notch?

...reduce those harmful carbs, harmful mannn~

lyea pun dah berisi, and it's all thanks to me.

perut makin besaq,

peha makin gebu

WAHAHAHA

okay. suka.

dah better get my nap before i get awfully grumpy.

jiao :)

1442.86 km

2011-02-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

mesti kau hairan, kan?

benda yang paling kecil yang aku boleh buat sendiri pun..

mesti nak call kau,

ajak kau teman,

minta kau mandi cepat,

ber'kemas' cepat,

jalan lajulaju,

satu tempat, tapi aku boleh drag kau detour jalan jauhjauh.

dua pinggan, satu gelas, satu cawan dan satu sides...kita boleh lepak sampai berjam.

balik lambat? pak guard bising?

apahal. overnight ja. hahahaha

...tak lama lagi.

jarak kat atas tu yang membataskan kita.

seriously..tak suka :(

coffee and bread

2011-02-27T20:10:00.003+08:00

..for this pirate's tummy to stay up during the night.

a few nights actually.

starting from tomorrow onwards i'll be starting my revision.

YES. FINAL EXAM IS COMING.

mine will be starting on the 11th of april and ends on the 25th.

promised myself no more stupid flaws on my exam papers.

score high.

* i've set 3.5 and above.

i've blown my MLS and Contracts carrier marks.

one for the blewn presentation and the other fr the weird 'Contract Game' style of Client Counseling.

still have Consti, ILS and Titas to make things up.

okay?

time to work,

jiao :)

COCA COLA CAKAP SOALAN CONTRACT GAME TEAM AKU SALAH.

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS BUYING LICENSE AND BUY SHARES FROM THEM.

"WE'RE SO RICH, WE BUY THEM FIRST BEFORE THEY CAN EVEN CLICK OPEN THEIR BRIEFCASE FULL OF PROPOSALS.." kata DIRECTOR mereka.

...so mestilah kan markah aku rendah dan AKU kena terima bulat-bulat sekarang semata2 pasal soalan yang diberi tu SENDIRI salah?

foul-mouth pirate. *DIRTY

2011-02-26T02:19:00.005+08:00

a couple of weeks ago Lyea and i had this huge argument waged on.

it's about her ex whose seemingly can't keep his cock spilling pre-mature jizz.

and so Khairah which is one of the sisterling to Lyea

had asked me a few nights later, "where's the dirty post?"

*despite all those name calling she gave me,

she's actually sweet. in an awkward way..i mean, with pedo-eyes-involve way

and so here it is.

heads bro.

serious shit aku cakap:

AKU TAK ADA KILLER SMILE MACAM KAU

AKU TAKDA HILUX BAGAK BESAR NAK BAWAK PERGI BERJALAN RAYA

AKU TAK AMBIK COURSE ENGINEERING

AKU BUTA WARNA

AKU TAK PANDAI SPEAK SARAWAKIAN

AKU TAK BELAJAR SILAT

AKU TAK MAIN GUITAR ACOUSTIC

AKU TAK TOUGH MACAM KAU

AKU TAKDA DSLR CANON

AKU TAK BOLEH NAK BELIKAN LYEA CINCIN

AKU SENDIRI TAKTAU CINCIN BESI BOLEH UKIR NAMA

AKU TAK POST STATUS UPDATES PASAL MORAL STUFFS

AKU TAK PANDAI KIRA HARI MACAM KAU

AKU BUKAN ORANG SIBU

APATAH LAGI AKU BUKAN IBAN

AKU TAK MASUK MRSM KUCHING SAMA MACAM LYEA

AKU TAK ADA APA APA PUN NAK SHOW OFF DENGAN KAU KALAU TAKDIR SEKALI PUN AKU DATANG SARAWAK TERJUMPA KAU.

cuma aku nak ingatkan kau..

your times up. i have respect fr the r'ship you had entered before.

and you made an ass out off yourself fr being a nut head.

remove all those pictures of you two together,

you're like a fuking idiot having your pics appearing on ppls walls.

stop being a dick,

grow some balls.

and hairy pubes at the same time too.

have respect.

just have respect..

itu ja aku nak...

the dirty one.

bodoh punya gampang anak sundal haram jadah motherfucker.

aku mintak sangat lah kau ingat carut ni aku bagi kat kau.

dan jugak kepada siapasiapa kat luar sana.

jangan berani2 cuba aku.

AKU CUMA BUDAK DARIPADA SEMENANJUNG,

YANG KENAL SUSAH DARI LAHIR.

CUBA PANJAT UNTUK NAIK KE ATAS.

UNTUK JADI YANG TERBAIK.

...AND I'M KEEPING LYEA. yoinkkk!

been away working.

2011-02-26T02:00:00.005+08:00

assalamualaikum

and so this week has been a long one.

1) with rare posts since bambee (my ASUS-Bamboo laptop)

is in my girl's safe keeping.

her lappy broke down w lots of works in her way and i'm not into much typing lately.

2) i've officially become a competent driver on the 18th

and settle myself with a sweet solid-non arguable license.

no 'P' or 'L' ..

just a handsome face of mine. my name and some numbers i dont even care to read.

3) argued with mom because of some simple misunderstandings.

argued with anne fr a major accusation. which my dear sister, you had commited foul. but i forgive you since you're a girl of 'shoot first, ask later'

also..argued with lyea with rather disappointing issues..

4) oh. and to my joy.

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah swt.

i've got to own my own car.

and it's all thanks to mom's special surprise.

it's Fair-white, national-pride, youthfully engineered fr sheer joy of driving.

...and he's called 'Lehmahn, The Dancing Cloud aka saga FL'

5) UKM had its election day. and my fav Pro-Aspirasi lose.

which brings us to ..6) Say 'NO' to bonceng?

fuck you. i saw boys with girls with heavy purdah like mak arab palestin purdah!

riding together with highly in doubt-non-mahram circling with motorbikes around ukm in the occasion celebrating the win that same night. BOO!

7) fuck. cut my long- prized dark gold hair...

other than that,

i.went to Penang earlier this month.

been picblog stored in drafts about the trip.

ii.PBL fr this Sem suck cocks to the fukin throat.

iii. i expect garbage marks and so need to hustle fr my exams.

all thanks to lousy teammates with their 'Malays are lazy-ass people' mind.

well fuck you.

see you in the next post

till then,

jiao :)

hello. i'm number four :)

2011-02-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

"lepas ni aku tak marah dah, aku senyum ja macam kayu. kau tahu peranan kau. jangan kecewakan aku"

matters not solved (clean version)

2011-02-07T12:25:00.002+08:00

ehem. okay.

situasinya begini,

bayangkan kalau seorang tu ada 39 ex (or bahasa melayunya bekas kekasih).

dan yang ke EMPAT puluh (40) ni merupakan temannya yang current.

yang possible and definite. dah tak payah search lain lagi dah.

and masalah timbul bila setiap daripada 39 ex itu tadi still ada gambar2 mereka bersama seorang itu tadi dalam setiap profile laman web komunikasi i.e facebook (cth).

dan manusia sekeliling. melihat dan mempersoal lalu mentertawa.

...apa rasanya menjadi si ke-EMPAT puluh ni?

untung yang ke EMPATpuluh ni bukan seorang yang tidak pandai melawan...hanya mampu melihat dan pura-pura buta. mengheret senyum paksa semata2 hendak mengatakan harinya sempurna.

...sedangkan dalamnya luka.

tahniah sikap hipokrit bermukamuka ke-EMPATpuluh.

berikan sorakan gembira malu untuk anda :)

"sah, berjanji itu perkara senang, tapi boleh dpertikaikan pengotaan,

...sedang yang satu memenuhi janji lalu menjadi pihak yang terkilan.

apa remedi yang boleh diharapkan bila satu janji lagi menutup janji lalu?"

-mikki, 2011-

dirty version. malam ini

2011-02-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

i was thinking on updating..but then, reality strikes hooorrrorrrribly.

and it brings together a message.

sounded like this.

tutorials.tick.Islamic Legal System.tick.PBL.tick.MLS.tick.TiTas.tick.afford? fucked.

hustle now dear young mikki.

one step before another.

2011-01-26T11:13:00.001+08:00

...lupakan kejap semua konflik sosial,

hari ini, rabu

test untuk Undang-Undang Kontrak II

jam 1400.

c'mon miks.

score HIGH!

no mens rea, plea bargain please?

2011-01-24T17:54:00.004+08:00

...no matter what i do. it's always going to be me, the one who's at fault.

though my intentions were clear..i didn't meant to,

accidently, without me noticing, or even i forgot to..also i'm just assuming things gonna be okay.

and i'll be apologizing everyone later on..

misappreciated and be stepped on..

and lose respect.

"sebab aku tak akan pernah jadi yang terbaik"

fuck this cruel world. fuck it!

feud NOW!

2011-01-24T00:16:00.003+08:00

this speech is typed at 0016 hours

ladies and gentlemen,

oppression is a word that we dare not to let it roam freely in our society,

injustice, though has an extension of two alphabets than justice itself, meant a lot differ from the latter,

ego, boast and selfish, three of a kind that made up the angle to a triangular of destruction and now became the ugliest ingredient a recipe can ever be.. to create the worst masterpiece.

snitch @ lizard tongued-bastard brings even the solid of an emperor down to its crumbles.

...and i have found no use to continue such hypocritical presentation in our daily communication.

as for..therefore,

in my sole faith,

balanced by both good and evil,

as for my betrayed honoring oath of friendship..

24th january, two thousand and eleven,

i declare war on you,

flesh and bones,

till your last bloodlines

and together with your minions,

who blind enough to follow you in this sure death crusade..

to dust you all will be.

this little pirate, is his own Saracen

tomorrow. we. are. strangers.

I DESPISE YOU!

The Warchief,

Mikki

.........................

Ya Allah, give me strength in this out-powered duel.

till then,

jiao.

me. remind me self :)

2011-01-21T12:02:00.003+08:00

dear mikki yang adorable,

nanti balik jangan lupa bawak:

1) nikki for koke

2) baju kolej za'ba buat melaram masa makan kat KIY

3) a few spare hundreds $$$ to live

4) baju melayu fr friday prayers

5) get a hair cut!

remember also, on your way back home. consider a few basic tees, and polos'... at your favorite retail store. the membership card is in the wallet in between IC and ATM card

yes, you're going low on them fr your everyday fittings.

oh if there's a little money. investing on a black coat would be wise.

mooting is somewhere near. and you need to stay sharp ;)

and when you get back to KPZ,

pull over at Kl Sentral fr your usual Subway tummy filler and

a Venti frappucino of your favorite.. ask the barrister fr extra milk and chocolate and a really heavy whipped cream on your Cappucin'

don't keep yourself craving fr the bullshitness of your Zaba's cafe.

choose your FL wisely, surely it's gonna be white

and any bodykits are compulsary!

make it your favorite milk box your toughy tank.

oh. if you're thinking of getting a TLR. better take the Blackbird Fly,

in a month or so, get the Lubitel 166+......lomo :)

The Jeffery's : line crossed

2011-01-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum :)

i'd went to tutorial's replacement class just now.

ended around 10am and had brunch with Que.

hidayah is quite okay if you get there, early.

but my mind is still nowhere to be found.

i'm kinda struck by Izzat al faris aka IJAT 's words right after the tutorial ended.

he said something about our prof for Contracts feeling a bit uneasy

with us, The Jefferey's.

i don't know what actually she meant by saying that.

but as the 'sniper' for the crew,

..i guess now is the time to load and fire the first-killing shot.

i totally hate it when comparisons happen.

The lecturer express how worry she is with our line (baris tempat duduk dominated and so rigid to substitute it's players)

compare to the other lines.

as though we're not working hard enough,

it's hard to swallow but if that's what she ask for. participation and quit being a rascal.

then, The Jeffery's will.

mark my word.

so please, dear jeff's.

we have been touched.

now can we retaliate?

and do justice to us?

dear love, how can you race with time and distance?

2011-01-19T01:28:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum:)

my mobile phone cannot accept any more messages since the memory cant store anymore messages..

here i am, reading old text messages, one by one.

and what's more memorable than the early days and nights.

the first text message to you, dear love.

i read it and only now i felt how stupid i was.

and yes, the text during the whole month we were part during the sem break

a lot of missings and that one conflict that almost blew everything we're working on to dust.

sigh!...just a few more weeks left before you pack your bags and clothes and go back home again,

and this time. it'll be long before we can meet again. too long for this pirate to wait.

stupid UPU and it's foreign standardization.

and i'm not sure if i can keep my sanity while you're away :(

and i can't imagine my days without you around.

we'll survive... can we, liyana?

tell then, i'll make use every single time we have here.

jiao :)

to know

2011-01-17T23:52:00.003+08:00

walaupun kat FB and Blog sangat2 lah si mikki neh ceria semacam

Hakikatnya, dia sangatsangatlah pemalu.

lagi-lagi nak menegur orang.

so, jangan!

i repeat jangan terasa hati okay.

or buat assumption aku ni sombong.

that hurts.

a simple 'hi'

a few "brooo or kakk nak pi mana??"

a lot of talks,and jokes and smiles and laughs..

and we're good in no time :)

okay?

jiaaaaoo

Mr Michellin

2011-01-17T11:27:00.003+08:00

OH CELAKA!

AKU DAH MAKIN GEMUK!

1st terserempak kawan lama, cakap aku punya tone semua dah lari, and the assume aku tak main sports, runner, gym....true and boleh diterima.

2nd Que cakap aku dah nampak perut...kat cafe tengah makan. sumpah down! baling semua kwey tiao kat tepi! PPEH!

3rd and yang paling worst sekali bila girlfriend aku sendiri si Lyea uh seronok cucuk2 perut aku kata "comel!! macam doraemon!!" lalu sumbat pretzel Auntie Anne's dalam mulut aku -..-

SIAO LEYYYY -..-

okay, serious kena buat something,

hilang my packs takpe janji badan tegap,

badan naik sikit takpe, janji masih fit

tapi kalau perut menunjukkan tanda celaka?

sumpah. cuak.

nasib baik stamina tak effect. dah try lari full sprint..

za'ba-kiy-uo-pusanika-atma-masjid UKM.

still tak mencungap lagi. *bangga*

dan baru sekejap tadi berbincang dengan roommate

*kitorang dulu sama-sama budak kawad so tau ah nak fit kan balik badan macam mana

and so kami telah bersepakat selepas ber Qiyas selama 2 minit

dan outcome nya?

ada dua metod.

1) postif way

-jaga makan

-tengah hari (portion nasi: lauk, 1:3)

-malam no nasi

-jog tiap tiap petang

-sit ups lepas sembahyang

(rasional? sembahyang waktu 5 kali en? situps 100times x 5? dah 500! usher bhai~ yeaaa mayn~)

-puasa!

2) cara celaka

- g farmasi beli ubat berak (selalu buat ramai2 masa time kadet polis diraja dulu. hahaha)

- tak makan langsung

- isap dadah (bangi mana nak carik doeeeee~ haha)

*kalau cuti sem selalu jog,

&&& before jog,mesti sapu mustajab.

dia macam burner ah.

tapi PERGH! mustajab bhai. serious tahap karma it works.

tapi still kena lari macam sial gak ah pastu.

pelik, kolej makan tak sedap pun badan boleh naik -..-

okay?

jiao :)

aku dah promote lotion mustajab, takkan tak boleh jadi duta kot -..-

Twin-Lens Reflex

2011-01-17T02:01:00.003+08:00

Lubitel, Holga, Blackbird Fly, Rolleiflex, Voigtlander, Yashica, Gakkenflex...and of course, The Monster, Hasselblad.

still think SLR is everything? think again.

drool :(}

Chapter 3: Forever Alone

2011-01-16T02:38:00.001+08:00

have you created a Tumblr account?

yes? no?

if you ask me, i dont have one since my idea of blogging is to write word by word,

and not reblog pictures or quotes from other people.

My girlfriend and my sister..them both have Tumblr.

however, to be impartial

there's one phenomena which in a way i find Tumblr attractive

it's called MeMe.

and personally,

my favorite would be 'Forever alone'

google image it. you'll get the picture

so what does this have to do with our chapter we're trying to learn?

it describes how people who's trying to be somebody

and would even sacrifice their asses so that they could be belong to a group of people.

in a way, to say, they're trying to counter 'Forever Alone' to lean towards 'I sell my ass, you'll be my friend'

yes, do what you can to impress people,

but never lie to yourself pretending to be someone you're not

YOU'RE NOT.

just because that certain group of friends smoke cigarettes,

you come to class with a 32inches long of a monster Bong the next day!

you'll somehow gain some spotlights, curtains and a room with a star nailed on it.

but never will you gain respect, dear friend

nobody likes pretenders,

and at the end of the day,

you'll be left out..

and you'll be 'FOREVER ALONE'

you deserve it.

me no friend friend you!

more coming :)

Chapter 2 : Casio

2011-01-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

remember the SPM days?

remember maths?

or for pure science students..add maths?

..remember our best friend back then who knows it all

but still wont give any answers for the two subjects above?

yes, it's the mutha-fukin 'Casio'.

Casio is derived from the popular scientific calculator,

but three years passed,

and a new type of Casio has been discovered.

and it's what we accidently call them as, friends.

normally, this type of people are extremely calculative.

there's a malay saying which i had invented just now,

"aku dengan kawan-kawan, aku tak pernah berkira, so kau tak payah nak celaka sangat ah en nak usung kalkulator Casio kehulur-kehilir"

yeap.

nama berkawan,

tapi makan nak berkira,

minyak kenderaan berenjin berkira,

bagi perokok, rokok tak sampai separuh batang tinggal 3 sedut pun nak berkira,

nak text benda2 penting pun berkira,

apa hal?

kot ya pun dulu amik aliran perakaun,

nak buat praktikal pun jangan sesama kawan ah.

sepatutnya, kau kena ingat.

sebelum kau mengungkit,

fikir balik, apa yang kawan kau pernah buat untuk kau.

kau dah tahu duit tuh macam kencing,

(sedap keluar, tak sedap nak simpan and tak boleh minum balik kencing uh)

ada baik kau save duit tu buat makan,

tak payah lah kau nak berkira bila sampai cafe terkulat2 muka..

bajet nasi campur, NASIK, ikan kembung goreng (sama ada separuh atau sebelah ja) and KICAP so that tak exceed, rm2.00.

air? jamban ada paip..free pe~

so that what? kau boleh melaram next week dengan shirt baru?

hoodie baru? tiket konsert? gambar2 kau tengah mabuk?

tolonglah. poser.

bagi member2 yang drive.

aku paling menyampah bila kawan kata nak kasi tumpang,

jarak point A pergi point B tak sampai sedepa dua jengkal setengah.

tapi mintak "tong" minyak macam kau nak drive naik ke bulan.

and yes, note perkataan 'mintak'

kalau sesama member, kita TAK MINTAK

sebaliknya, kita buat perhitungan purata (darjah 4)

contoh, nak isi minyak rm20. dalam kereta ada 4 orang.

RM20.00 bahagi 4orang = rm5.oo seorang

that's how you do it bongok!

bukannya kau pergi tax seorang RM8.

so that, kau boleh save duit g main arked sampai mata naik juling.

nak isi Ron97 tapi aircond pun tanak pasang. celaka.

apa hal?

Chapter 2.2- Casio jam

(will add later)

...continue to next chapter

Chapter 1: dua darjat

2011-01-16T01:29:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum :)

and so we're back on reviewing the issue regarding types of people we commonly mistake them as friends.

Dear O people!

in the law of friendship, there's one maxim:

puppis quis alius sit Dunk duo ejusdem saeculo .. stercus

the translation? go find it yourself.

it's in Latin, mind

and i've created it myself, double mind.

anyway,

there's one thing going on in our malay society

where how the "cerekarama-RM 44 juta" describes some friends are.

it's where one feels superior over the other.

and basically, it's in term of wealth.

"my family owns a bungalow with the structure poles are imported from Rome and we installed 16 of them!"

"my best friend is cool cause his dad bought a yacht eventhough they're living in KL..where the only Ocean is what we refer to as "lautan pekerja haram dari Indon"

tell that to my face, and i'll say..

"fuck" simple.

and i would even double the fuck when they started to group other people

as 'still not up to their reputations'

this type of people is common,

they're here, among us with small dicks, jiggling left and right

and acting is their first and foremost nature..soooo the drama.

yeap:)

they could talk and laugh with you

but behind your back,

they'll criticize you, your shirts, pants, parents, pets, the colour of your shoe lace and your spectacle's frame, your nose, your girlfriend's cousin, the 80cent pen you're writing your MLS note with, the malfunctioning kettle for not boiling water, the..em..everything lah celaka!

and worst,

they'll compare all that with themselves. for what they own.

what the hell?

that's so very the very very very the very cruel.

i hate to see the fact,

a group of girls or sisterhood (whatever it is)

go anywhere with their longdresses

and come this one girl. a friend

and they treat as though everything is fine

but us people observing from afar,

we knew, that one girl is not being accepted.

why? cause she's that type of girls with shirts, jeans and cardigans.

simple.

for boys, it's the same but substitute

long dresses, blackberrys, flashy earrings and high end makeups with

sharp suits, iphones, future-now laptops and hot girlfriend.

this type of people. is my biggest 'NO!'

note: my girlfriend wears shirts, and cardigans,and loose pants, and flip flops with mere makeups of powder and perfume and a thin line of eyeliner where ever i took her to..and to me, she's beyond beautiful and the sweetest girl this world has to offer:)

turn to next chapter...

friendship for dummies (mikki's edition 2011)

2011-01-14T17:44:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

The best part of being me i guess

is that i can really get attached to someone pretty easily.

and you could say that i'm not that kind of person that

discriminates people based solely on their appearance or traits.

i can befriends with anyone.

and i enjoy getting to know people

so long they dont do anything crazy.

i would eventually smack their heads upside down. for sure.

and so, a few days back i was having this conversation with a good friend of mine, Lini while we're on the way to Palace of Justice.

and she somehow feels uneasy with certain people around her.

yeap, me too

and so clearly,

i express my hatred on these types of people.

1) dua-darjat people

2) casio-people

3) forever alone people

4) whore-like people

5) wrong way-recruit people

i will discuss on this topic deeper by breaking the types of people above into several chapters in my future posts.

at the end of the posts, you'll learn

how to detect a true friend
how to avoid cheap peoples disguise as a friend
how to control yourself from being mind-fuck by these so called friends
be a good friend :)

that's all for now,

jiao :)

* i always wanted to be a journalist, reporter, photographer anything related ;P

turning point.

2011-01-14T17:33:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

it's friday :)

a day where i can finally gain my sanity back.

i guess my new year's resolution which is to be more responsible

has pretty much consume a large part of myself.

going to class early, and spend the night reading

(after a "how's your day sayang" with her call)

and sleep around 4-5 in the morning.

i can see i'm pretty much busted.

yesterday my low blood hit me again after quite sometime.

i had to skip Bahasa Arab's class and spend the afternoon.

suffering alone in my bed.

ishh~

better set myself straight again.

till then,

jiao :)

BLM. BLM SE or BLM FL???

i've set my target

dua cubit

2011-01-10T02:32:00.003+08:00

bila pemikiran kompleks dah datang..

hari ini bertikam lagi,

suaranya makin dilawan makin tinggi,

apa sahaja yang dituntut,

tangis jua akhirnya,

dalam tangis rebah lelap

pangkuan bonda lembut mengadap.

...bonda kata,

jangan risau.

jangan peduli,

lawan! bonda ada :)

jalan ini tiada senangnya,

ada aja lenggoknya,

pelajari juga budayanya,

tak lupa hormat sekelilingnya :)

.......

malam berkunjung sudah,

gadis masih menunggu,

hatinya gundah,

mengira merindu,

aku tiba dengan manisan,

cuba melawan dia mamaikan,

seharian tak ketemukan,

aku janjikan empat bulan.

aku minta setia,

kau mohon percaya,

tak senang,

jangan dibiar keduanya bergenang,

...tak senang

..jadi izin aku bertanya,

bagaimana aku dekatkan,

dua jiwa yang berserakan?

nanti ;(

.........

event besar bagus untuk soft-skill katanya...

2011-01-07T03:10:00.003+08:00

buto pak hang.

tak nak cakap banyak, but..i'mgetting sick of it.

no wonder most of my FUU elder-brothers and forbids me from joining..and lucky i didn't.

and i'm sorry but i've lost my patience.

and oh! thank you so much,

i've argued with lyea.

cool en? cool en?

cool abah kau.

dah lah our '1-1' time habis macam tu ja,

lepak dengan kawan2. sekejap2

'MT this, MT that', 'Pemantau this, Pemantau that'

blablablabla soft skill.. blablablablabla JAKSA..

gila takde life.

and now my Lyea berkecil hati dengan aku

while all i was trying to do is to help her.

support her,

remind her..

sial sangatsangat :(((

if there's a post without a title after this one.

you know what event i'm referring to.

angkat2 kening untuk budak2 KPZ

okay? toosh.

great! now i cant sleep. esok taklimat PBL FUU

YANG BERATUS2 KALI GANDA LAGI PENTING.

memang hanyut ah en?

a lone night..and a long sigh.

2011-01-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum:)

Alhamdulillah and, so i'd just finish off my lawbooks readings, notes and revisings,

and had a glimpse at the questions for tutorials. *tengok je.malas nak buat

and some blog-walkings.

fukin bored,

OH! and so last night, Lyea stunned me with her two gifts.

1) A minnie mouse doll. which is cute and been sitting on my bed staring at me since then

and 2) A TOPMAN Dual-Messenger Bag which is friggin owsummm!

*grinnn*

i'm still excited since i'd never been this..uh.."spoilt" (??) before,

and unlucky me..

expecting her text, but a long sigh is what had became the outcome.

yeah,

she's busy with her Kapreza thing,

and her assignments and presentations,

and her assignment from Dr. Affendi whoever he is..

and she said she can't make it for a weekend outing..

..okay this is the part where i inhale.

and...

...sigh~

well at least we spent the evening together walking from Pusan to KPZ

&&& before that,

she did this UKM's private-creative evaluative test for me at the Bakery..

(since i'm such a lazy-ass to do so)

y'know? the one where you have to circle,

5 is 'sangat memuaskan' and 1 is 'sangat tidak memuaskan'?

she's awesome..and not that good at circling.

bulat semua bengkok bengkok ;)

eh? evaluate?

OMFG. she can see right thru me..hahaha

gonna get her something.

stopped tobacco-ing fr two days now.

..and i told her, "i did this for you"

jiao:)

a humble favor :)

2011-01-06T00:47:00.004+08:00

see, being a lawstudent teaches me a matter or two

regarding ethics.

and it effects my life.

it has always been that way.

E.T.H.I.C.S

so does the same when i blog

dear friends,

Hari-Hari Rancakku

is about sharing my day and a little moral values to it.

*note: A LITTLE

i hold on to the principle,

"follow me, follow you."

meaning that i'll follow you and..

it's not even necessary for you guys to follow this page back.

but if you do. thank you!

i appreciate it so much!

..and therefore, i insist..kindly leave your blog URL or anything related so that i could follow you guys back as a return, other than the fact that i love reading people's blogpost ;P

remember: me follow you follow me follow you :)

p/s: NO! it's no childish writing down our days, love stories, and everyday adventure in a blog.

it's a method of expressing :)

just because you think that way,

doesnt mean you could give a slam on other people.

so shut the fuck up.

jiao :)

a quiet time, alone:)

2010-12-29T01:55:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

1) Mother,

i'm still having this uneasy feeling after the last weekend

especially when mom told anne that i'm getting grumpier these days.

i can't help myself but holding on from breaking when she said that.

i felt awful.

yes, i'm tired mother. and i'm always hungry.

and i hate the fact that you're the only one i can ever hold to..

and i always asked myself,

"where's my other families? uncles? aunts?"

fuck lah, you dont call yourself a family if you're not lending a hand.

and yes, i learn now mother.

it's not a good thing when studies started to effect your life..again.

yes, sem 2 is quite hard. i'm eating less nowadays

since i would be waking up far at night after a tiring day.

8am classes and lunch skipping is just another day routine.

i guess priorities should be given more on anne.

she'll be taking her SPM next year.

that'll take a lot of fees and reference books to make sure she hits big.

dont dissapoint me, Anne.

nenek? for all the years you'd taken good care of me and anne.

i'm pretty much disappointed on you.

knowing the fact that you'd been channeling help to the wrong hands.

you left me waiting..

and hoping..

open your eyes. how many grandsons/daughters are there?

it's just me and anne. wake up!

i give up.

all i ever hope for is to get a car. pronto.

but i wouldn't dare asking her one.

but then again i hope she would consider this (if she reads this)

i dont ask a fancy one..i mean, had one. and maintaining is shit-ass high.

something simple that could take me from point A to point B

is all i need.

...just make sure it has bodykits. i dont do factory ;)

whatever happened. i love you three girls back home:)

2) Lyea,

i guess we're on the right track.

still learning her and love is just blossoming day by day.

but there's always incident where we'll argue..

and it's gonna get nasty,always.

i'm loving the fact that she's been doing her utmost will in her part as a girlfriend.

thank god. she's way better than i'd ever expected.

and i would certainly seek her when help is what i need.

i mean she's the only one i've got other than my "The Jeffery's Brothers" and my seniors *gaia! mana kau :((

i may not elaborate more on this but the next post will.

3) studies,

today was a bit hectic considering the classes are tightly packed.

and a lot of rushing from point A to point B.

i'm exhausted,

exhausted on the 2nd day of the week,

every week from now on,

for the whole semester.

Alhamdulillah, Que and Hitman were smart enough

planning our classes and thus leaving wednesday..free~

*ultra-fucking-wide-grin*

a lot of catching up to stay on top of the game.

so better make use the whole night

and have fun the next day :)

books checked, cereal and milk checked..do like no tomorrow ;)

okay?

later, jiao :)

stand tall.

2010-12-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

by right, all of you should know,

that..

boys like us have brains speed match to a bullet,

hearts cold enough to freeze you in a 250yrds radius,

and tongues razor-sharp to dice you up,

physically we're punching bags only that we 'take and give back'

...and all above stated while our emotion remains static.

touch us. you're dead :)

yes, this is a threat.

tangled? straighten it, trim and high-light:)

2010-12-27T02:36:00.005+08:00

assalamualaikum :)

and so my liyana..is still smiling because she had what she waited for..(i think)

yes! it's the movie Tangled (Rapunzel)

OMG. i felt so terrible seeing her longing to watch the movie.

i went too hard on her fr the past couple of weeks,

and i felt sorry for her being quiz'd by my Barney Stinson, Wan Aizuddin @ Que/Brad/ Chuck Bartowski,

and she was stressed with her works,

and she was lucky, i had no classes on wednesdays

& i'm a movie-fan. anything. goes.

...&&& all i want is 'one and one' time with her :)

and so we went for Tangled @ The Gardens last week.

tak jauh. ya aku tau.

but it's our first date since the sem break..after one month not seeing each other.

now, does that count?

still,

i'm sorry sayang.

you had waited for a month, counting days since our first day of sem break and my absence to Singapore just to watch it with me.

and you hold down your patience hearing your friends story how great the movie was.

it was a test..seeing how long can you wait, and you nailed me there:)

*omk! movie uh best sial. tak tipu. lagi2 mengkarung, si pascal and pakcik tua "flying kiss" uh

i stick to my words when i say, we'll watch it together.

and it shows i mean it when i say, 'i'll make you happy'

..it comes first in my "our to-do together" list. okay?

mata you bulat,bersinar masa watch the movie,

and masa you pucat,huru-hara and blushed. i cuak.

and when you smiled. i know we're okay.

it's in our pockets :)

that's it,

jiao:)

ahhh~ The Gardens. you never failed me

and thanks fr the Topman, love.

embryo.

2010-12-27T02:30:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

classes have started and i'm expecting a storm now.

yes, even the most "chewable" course might end up with you

having a jaw..ached.

yes, a clear sky is not to be trusted when you're a law student.

that's for metaphor.

but reality checks, if the sky is clear.

it might rain when you walk down to the bus stop

down the hill of kolej pendeta za'ba.

so beware dear young lawstudent, mikki :)

tercelik.

2010-12-23T04:15:00.001+08:00

sem 2 started with a good kick.

hope this momentum won't be slowed down by any unnecessary dealings.

insya-allah :)

Kamil Gondang. kau memang. hahaha XD

2010-12-15T01:24:00.003+08:00

thanks semut aka Kamil Gondang!

*baru perasan kena tag. tu la lain kali baca blog orang sampai habis.

**nampak sangat tak istiqamah

hahaha. here goes!

1. ape benda yg paling penting dalam idup anda?

HAPPYness

2. 2 benda terakhir yg korang beli pakai duit sendiri?

kasut putih topman, nasi lemak sotong + ayam merah

3. dimana tempat korang nak langsungkan perkahwinan & ape tema perkahwinan korang?

HOME . tema batik jawa gila cool en?

4. adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

Yeap :)

5. berape lame korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

Lama tapi Allah yang menentukan :)

(tiru semut, aku tambah smiley ja)

*oh! &&& selagi takde siapa2 main gila ah. yeap!

6. novel/buku teakhir yg korang beli?

FHM Mag and Digital Camera Mag. double drool!

7. antara mak dan ayah yg mane 1 korang lebih mesra?

Ma. abah dah lama meninggal. so, ma wins

8. namekan org yg betul2 korang nk jumpe

Tun Mohammed Suffian.

*he inspired me to do law, tapi dah meninggal =(

9. adakah korang basuh baju sendiri?

HAHAHAHAHARAPAN.

10. dimanekah tepat yg krang betul2 nk pegi?

Beach. i love beaches! lepak2, tangkap gambar. PEHH!

11. pilih salah 1 peluk @ cium?

Hugs. No kidding..especially back hugs.

(spooning sounds so "emh!" right now)

12. bgtau 3 benda tentang org yg tag anda?

Basketball sumpah master! (a freak when it comes to sports)

suka jalan depan bilik dia sebab dia suka pasang lagu best ( we're rockers anyway)

pernah tersalah potong rambut dia. (hahaha)

13. benda yg korang sayang sgt dalam idup

Family, Lover, Bestfriends =)

14. 5 lagu yg korang suka & selalu dengar

Bring Me The Horizon - For Stevie Wonder's eyes only (Braille)

*sangat romantic

Alesana - Seduction (buat kau rasa nak punch orang)

Grey Sky Morning - Gadis Pemalu (penaik semangat)

Hujan - Gundah (beat dia..EMPH!)

The Strokes - The Modern Age (tema HHR)

Arctic Monkeys - Leave Before The Lights Come On

15. 6 blogger yg dipertanggungjawab utk tag ni

ENAM?
AKU NAK SEMUA YANG DAH BACA. BUAT!

TANAK? BALIK. CEBOK!

kadang-kadang.

2010-12-13T02:17:00.002+08:00

at night time like this is where i'll sit down

and reflect everything back.

kadang-kadang

kita tahu kita boleh buat semuanya,

dah tertulis dalam perancangan

cuma tinggal nak usahakan ja

tapi masa tu baru kita perasan kita

tiada apa yang diperlukan penting.

dan kadang kadang

kita cuba nak jadi yang terbaik

tapi dari satu masa ke satu masa yang lain

setiap cakap, perbuatan orang lain merendahkan kita.

kita hilang semangat.

dan kadang kadang

kita cuba nak puaskan hati orang

kita diberi banyak sangat pilihan

buat yang satu, satu lagi rasa ditinggalkan

akhirnya, kita tercegat disitu

..tak tahu nak bergerak ke mana

kadang kadang

aku rasa aku mampu bahagiakan kau waktu awal pagi

aku hilang keyakinan waktu tengah hari

aku tidur di petang hari

aku bangun sunyi waktu malam.

call me..

"..Leavin' just in time, Stay there for a while"

2010-12-12T03:30:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

My Lyea came back to KL from Sarawak today

and i was unable to fetch her at the airport.

thanks fever, you bring everything down.

just perfect. urgh!

yeap, considering the person sat beside her,

the flight attendence on the walkway between the rows,

the flight attendence at the door,

the person in front of her,

the guy driving the luggage caddie,

the security guy,

the security guy's partner,

the security guys' another partner who gets the highest salary among the three,

the people waiting for their luggage,

the makcik cleaner,

the bangla cleaner,

the Appu kedai buku,

the Mcd crew,

the Marry brown crew,

the kfc crew,

the pakcik teksi cekik darah,

the people around pavi,

the drunken anney,

the akak jaga toll,

and everyone who contributed in this night full of depress in me.

i pretty much just wanted to be the first person she sees once she get off the plane,

...THE first

better luck next time.

i wont miss my next time.

so god..help me!

*kau demam jangan nak ngengada!

till then,

jiao:)

eh baru perasan,

i didnt mention any pilots!

oh! i hate pilots since i didnt get the chance to be one.

acting smart with their uniforms..sheesh!

i simply dont trust them.

they slept during the flight and crash the planes into someone's house

and blame the birds for entering the dual engine thing while in the sky.

i simply just...eh that's another story. goodnight :)

2010-12-09T04:26:00.005+08:00

Telah berlaku Hawa diciptakan daripada rusuk kiri Adam A.s sewaktu tidurnya dia,

Jibrail datang diwahyukan Allah s.w.t agar dicabutkan rusuk kirinya itu.

besertakan kalam Allah "Kun" maka jadilah ia akan si Hawa.

baik parasnya, manis rupanya, elok gerak geri perilakunya.

Masa diputar ber ratus ribu tahun selepas itu,

waris si Adam telah melaku salah kepada waris Hawa.

dan sifat lembut yang diperturunkan kepada keturunan Hawa

membantutkan gerakan waris si Adam itu tadi untuk berkata

"aku minta maaf, aku berlaku salah atas kau. aku luka kan hati lembut kau"

waris si adam menunggu redanya amarah dan sedih waris si hawa,

lalu dalam resahnya, dia baring, terlelap dan tidur.

NAH! untuk kesekalian kalinya malaikat diutuskan Allah kepada waris si adam itu.

dan bukanlah ia pembawa wahyu, si Jabrail.

tapi pelaksana maut, si Izrail mengerjakan penarikan roh drpd jasad waris si Adam yang nyenyak itu.

salah kemana,

maaf kemana,

rindu kemana.

sayang kemana..?

To aplogize is something not to be postponed,

I may annoy you lot,

but i love you

and i'm sorry my dear, you.

2010-12-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Today is the 1st day of the new year according to the Islamic Calendar.

and yesterday, i went to surau for the End-New Year Doa.

what happened yesterday (simple things up)

1. Cited Yaasin - after Asr Prayer

2. End Year Doa

3. New Year Doa - after the Maghrib Azn

4. Maghrib Prayer in Jamaah

5. Tasbih Prayer - where we cited the Tasbih in the prayer (a lot, too!)

6. Isya' Prayer

7. Hajat Prayer - hajat a lot here, tho ;P

...and of course the 'all been waiting' part. MAKANMAKAN XD

*also 'secara berjamaah'

all in all,

it's a great way to start my year.

oh! &&& i fasted today.

yeah,

i feel great,

till then,

jiao:)

HAPPY AWAL MUHARRAM =)

new song.

2010-12-05T20:02:00.002+08:00

Cruel avenue

Just walk it on,

this street of life

prepare to prone

we shall survive (yeah)

because this world we're tryin to livin

and the people we're tryin' to fit in

will force you dow, dow dow, down

until your last hope don't stop believin

tuck in your shirt,

raise up your proud (boy)

yeah sometimes days just hurt

but it's all for the crowd

because this world we're tryin to livin

and the people we're tryin' to fit in

will force you dow, dow dow, down

..until your last hope don't stop believin

and time just runs so fast,

and we're made to last, (to last)

get up from your knees

up to your chins

wipe your tears, now boy

oh why dont you just wipe your tears

and swallow everything

because this world we're tryin to livin
and the people we're tryin' to fit in
will force you dow, dow dow, down

we will survive. (3x)

songwriter : mikki kamarulzaman

composed : mikki kamarulzaman

performed : mikki and friends / various

Spongebob? Patrick?? Squidward???

2010-12-05T05:05:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON??

(i'm pretty much sure my kaki-panjang dah terjebak)

Tri-Action..in commence :)

2010-12-05T03:47:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum,

okay. i was thinking for a master monetary plan.

and it came to this..

since JPA has been so cruel. i think i'd just let off my hopes.

not saying that i've quit trying.

worst comes to worst, PTPTN.

which is a big no-no to me.

i mean i hate debts.

..and paying after spending. urgh!

and so my master devillous plans now is to make use everything i've got.

yeap!

i've said so before.

i've scout every single opportunities in my current location.

and looks like the sky casting a heavy rain of ringgits!

and so, a lot of my friends asked me..

"mik, you're so good at handling cameras, why wont you start your own photographing team?"

good one,

in fact i did, and it's 'Mikane Photographers'

i hate to say this BUT I HATE CLICHE'S!

i hate the fact that whenever a person holds a DSLR body

the 1st thought is "aku nak jadi photographer orang kawin"

tolonglaaaa~

Mikane is versatility.

we shoot everything.

and we dont make money.

ikhlas :)

we emphasizes more on real time shooting situation,

and we hold to.."less post-editing is more!"

but for some reason, i have to step up a notch,

i have to break a line that i had set.

maybe i'm just gonna take a couple of dozens of weddings. and i'm done.

i'll retire to landscapping.

for that, i need quite some tool to work on

and the masterplan is.

Firstly, use current money for:

A) Current tools: invest and improvement

1) get a super/ultrazoom lens

2) or a ultra/wide-angled lens.

and i'm off to work.

Then, after money has come to be sufficient

B) New Hammer for the JOB.

1) a flagship DSLR Body. (i'm having thoughts of using Canon's full frame)

2) ..or continue with Nikon and use dual-lines (Dx and Fx)

Lastly, when The Tools are well-equipped.

C)Make a living

1)money to pay for a car and gas (superbike too)

2)money for lawschool

3)life expenses.

*surely at this part of the game, i'm off from wedding photography.

"money is never enough,

so..hey, if we're good at something...

monopolize it!

&&& i'm evil."

fuck you biasiswa!

till then,

jiao :)

no, i'm not desperate for money or broke or whatsoever thrash-talks.

i just want to be independent.

to work on something out of what i have passion in since my childhood-Leica days :)

after all, all boys grow and work for what they desire..kan?

it's part of my life-learning process.comprende, pendejo?